Somebody asked me for a picture of when it all went down.. Here you go.
my first video, i had to hide my appearance for obvious reasons.
My arraingment is today.. I’m seriously thinking about cutting my hair. THis blonde stuff has defined me for so long I’m thinking it’s time for a change, plus being in here it’s really hard to keep bleaching it. I feel something stirring in me for the first time.. iits a real hard thing to embrace but change is exactly what i need. I think for me to find out where i need to go its going to have to start with real practical change. at least i hope thats possible.
Here’s a shot of the neck tat I got.. It’s called a “sacred heart?” I don’t know I’m not religious but it looked cool.
ive been getting tons of emails about some site theat we are on… look all i know is that this is my page im suposed to post on and thats it. I dont have anythign to do with whatever a web page is supposed to look like. i dont know wanything about hosts and junk like that.
Here’s a shot of one of the tats I got.. It represents the chains on my life.
someone said that at 12 today were supposed to switch something and that i may not be able to wrtie (which is fine by me) but im supposed to keep typing throughout the day… either way im gonna try and snap some pictures of my tattoos i just got and put them up.
I think the only time it’s quiet and at peace for me is when it rains… i think that comes from when I was little and the only time it was cool outside was when it rained. It was like someone threw a blanket on the whole neighborhood and we all chilled out for a few minutes…
its raining outside right now actually, it makes me forget about everything that i’m dealing with right now and brings it all to sense of starting over. its almost like everything gets scrubbed clean and we pause for a few minutes.
I’ve been contemplating a few tat’s lately, ive never had a tattoo in my life but there is a guy here that says he can do a temporary tattoo? what exactly is that? either way i might give it a shot.. well see.
everything about this spot drives me crazy… maybe it’s the fact that I’m away from everyone and everything. it’s 3 in the morning right now and I can’t sleep. My mind won’t stop racing but i’m completely exhausted at the same time. who am i kidding no one is even reading this right now… i wish I could sleep.. i wish i could escape i wish i could go back to everything i had.